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Reflection from September 23rd, 2012 @ Age 31

RE:  COMING TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT FEELS LIKE, TO HAVE LIGHT PASS **THROUGH** YOU ;0)

Time:  I don’t know because they won’t let me have my watch or cell phone, and won’t provide a clock in the rooms.

Somewhere in the process of OD’ing and ending up here, I lost my Nietzsche book (journal) mark.  I don’t know why they would take it from me, but it’s okay—I remember what it says (my wild roommate just crept in for her sweatshirt.  She’s funny but also, A MESS!!!).  This bed sheet is like sandpaper on my elbow as I write, but in any case—it’s my third whole day in lockdown and Adam hasn’t contacted or come to see me once (what a coward) and in the other more important case he (Nietzsche) said…

You must have chaos to give birth to a star.

What else really need be said?  Off to rag mag then The Hobbit!!!

Later

The Browns are playing, and Adam’s somewhere having beer and a good time—and here I lay crying, looking up at the grate on the ceiling in the psych ward.  Three years down the drain, just like that ;0(