Reflection from September 23rd, 2012 @ Age 31
RE: COMING TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT FEELS LIKE, TO HAVE LIGHT PASS **THROUGH** YOU ;0)
Time: I don’t know because they won’t let me have my watch or cell phone, and won’t provide a clock in the rooms.
Somewhere in the process of OD’ing and ending up here, I lost my Nietzsche book (journal) mark. I don’t know why they would take it from me, but it’s okay—I remember what it says (my wild roommate just crept in for her sweatshirt. She’s funny but also, A MESS!!!). This bed sheet is like sandpaper on my elbow as I write, but in any case—it’s my third whole day in lockdown and Adam hasn’t contacted or come to see me once (what a coward) and in the other more important case he (Nietzsche) said…
You must have chaos to give birth to a star.
What else really need be said? Off to rag mag then The Hobbit!!!
The Browns are playing, and Adam’s somewhere having beer and a good time—and here I lay crying, looking up at the grate on the ceiling in the psych ward. Three years down the drain, just like that ;0(