Reflection from October 1st, 2001 @ Age 20
RE: MENTAL ILLNESS VS. MENTAL HEALTH.
Well, I saw Trevor today with fatty Alicia aerobics girl…and I will admit, they looked pretty cute just walkin’ along they way they would. But it made me think, and even though Justin and I absolutely, positively drive each other insane most of the time…we both have that element of craziness you know. I guess you could say we are both ‘different’, if you will. But that’s what I love about him. That’s what I love about people you know. Regular people label it ‘weird’. I would have to say though, that it is more so an element of having really been able to “see”, see life, see what’s going on, see people for who they really are. It just seems that when you finally get a glimpse of the world that exists only of intangible things, you can never fully return to this materialistic existence as you were. I wouldn’t trade it for the world though. I think there’s an element of freedom in it too. To just not care about all the teeny tiny stupid shit in life that some people make such a huge deal about. There’s so much more out there. There’s got to be so much more.
God it was wonderful to see Janine again today. I love seeing her every week now! It’s so much fun. I must say though, I never thought I would turn out to be the strange one with her! But I am so glad I did!